ᴄᴀɴ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴇᴀʀ ᴍᴇ?
Description: Heeeeyyyy ;
I don't know how to start writing this description x,3 So I will begin why I created this amv. Originaly I wanted to edit an answer to my https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AEgq4gjz6vQ video. And I think after many attempts I did it. Honestly many of my videos in future will come back to it. It was honestly a core moment for me. For my development. Cough cough... That video I created when I was in my worst state. I already suffer with my depression more then ever. I honestly barely remember last year. It was all a fog... But there were things I remember clearly. It was just pain. Never stopping pain. At begining of the second year at Uni I got close with my friend. We decided to give it a try in relationship. And that was a light I was so hungry for. After whole year of suffering I though that this might be turning point for me... After the months that passed now I think it was actually. But not in a way I dreamed. Coming back. After months when we officially got together he dumped me after week. (you can laugh. I laugh about this now) So I got left alone again. And that's fine. It's something I know more then being around people. But this time I needed to fill the void after the hope he gave me... and well like I said. I was barely hanging out. But yeah things happen. After that I wanted to dissapear as I felt watched by everyone. Also I was bullied online by people from Uni... and well the ex-boyfriend- friend... so that's also why I dissapear. Like... There's things I can handle but I am just a human... And I break very easily even if I try not to show it. I am still bullied btw but I guess let people talk. I created new accounts and everything. Sorry for the inconvinients for everyone but I was terrified, full of anxiety and so fucking sad and betrayed.
I didn't knew what I can do. I did what I always do. Hide and cry alone. But I guess world was like "nah girl chill out. Take this" AND IT SEND ME THE BEST FRIEND EVER. Let me just tell you... she is not just a women. She is THE women. Like. SHE IS SO COOL, GORGEROUS AND FUCKING DANGEROUS! As always when I meet the most amazing people I don't know even how they appear. Like I am just doing my stuff and boom... they are here now with me and I can't breath when they are away from me. Cough cough... I can write the most embarassing things because hell no she will see this... Johny Brawo you can't show it to her if you will ever see this video. BIG NO.
Anyway. She jump into my life and literally bring me back to life. Step by step. Now I slowly moving forward, trying to finally heal for real. Not only for five minuite. I want to be better. I want to be enough to be her friend. (she would kick me if I would tell her I am not enough but its my video so I can write my feelings x,3) In times when I couldn't speak she heard me. Love her with my whole heart. She meet me when I was a monster yet she bring out kindness and peace. Thank you cutie.
And now about video again. I wanted to focus only on Suo... but ended up relating to all of those baby's! Like. Sorry if this video is messy x,3 Honestly I just needed to understand this video... But I hoped that maybe if you are in the same situation or have worse days you can kind of relate to this video? or maybe my vent x,3 ANYWAY! The most important is to remember YOU CAN do it! Don't give up! I know its the worst thing to hear when it's shitty. I know because I was getting furious when someone said this to me and even more I got mad because there were the most amazing people in the world who were worried about me. But trust me. YOU GOT THIS. Sacrifices are never easy to make... but in time they are worth it! Just keep going cuties! You got this! I believe in you all!
You are all worth it!
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I don't know how to start writing this description x,3 So I will begin why I created this amv. Originaly I wanted to edit an answer to my https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AEgq4gjz6vQ video. And I think after many attempts I did it. Honestly many of my videos in future will come back to it. It was honestly a core moment for me. For my development. Cough cough... That video I created when I was in my worst state. I already suffer with my depression more then ever. I honestly barely remember last year. It was all a fog... But there were things I remember clearly. It was just pain. Never stopping pain. At begining of the second year at Uni I got close with my friend. We decided to give it a try in relationship. And that was a light I was so hungry for. After whole year of suffering I though that this might be turning point for me... After the months that passed now I think it was actually. But not in a way I dreamed. Coming back. After months when we officially got together he dumped me after week. (you can laugh. I laugh about this now) So I got left alone again. And that's fine. It's something I know more then being around people. But this time I needed to fill the void after the hope he gave me... and well like I said. I was barely hanging out. But yeah things happen. After that I wanted to dissapear as I felt watched by everyone. Also I was bullied online by people from Uni... and well the ex-boyfriend- friend... so that's also why I dissapear. Like... There's things I can handle but I am just a human... And I break very easily even if I try not to show it. I am still bullied btw but I guess let people talk. I created new accounts and everything. Sorry for the inconvinients for everyone but I was terrified, full of anxiety and so fucking sad and betrayed.
I didn't knew what I can do. I did what I always do. Hide and cry alone. But I guess world was like "nah girl chill out. Take this" AND IT SEND ME THE BEST FRIEND EVER. Let me just tell you... she is not just a women. She is THE women. Like. SHE IS SO COOL, GORGEROUS AND FUCKING DANGEROUS! As always when I meet the most amazing people I don't know even how they appear. Like I am just doing my stuff and boom... they are here now with me and I can't breath when they are away from me. Cough cough... I can write the most embarassing things because hell no she will see this... Johny Brawo you can't show it to her if you will ever see this video. BIG NO.
Anyway. She jump into my life and literally bring me back to life. Step by step. Now I slowly moving forward, trying to finally heal for real. Not only for five minuite. I want to be better. I want to be enough to be her friend. (she would kick me if I would tell her I am not enough but its my video so I can write my feelings x,3) In times when I couldn't speak she heard me. Love her with my whole heart. She meet me when I was a monster yet she bring out kindness and peace. Thank you cutie.
And now about video again. I wanted to focus only on Suo... but ended up relating to all of those baby's! Like. Sorry if this video is messy x,3 Honestly I just needed to understand this video... But I hoped that maybe if you are in the same situation or have worse days you can kind of relate to this video? or maybe my vent x,3 ANYWAY! The most important is to remember YOU CAN do it! Don't give up! I know its the worst thing to hear when it's shitty. I know because I was getting furious when someone said this to me and even more I got mad because there were the most amazing people in the world who were worried about me. But trust me. YOU GOT THIS. Sacrifices are never easy to make... but in time they are worth it! Just keep going cuties! You got this! I believe in you all!
You are all worth it!
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